As I sit outside with the birds chirping, purple martins are everywhere, I am reminded of that beautiful morning in June 2022. The days leading up to my surgery, I was staying busy and trying to keep my mind off of what was about to happen. We even went zip lining 4 days before surgery! It was a blast and just what I needed. However, the next few days leading up to June 8, the day for my double mastectomy, worry and fear were setting in. So, I was doing my morning devotional poolside when everything seemed to stand still. Every other morning that week, people were mowing or kids playing, even the road behind our house was loud but not this particular moment. It was silent as the dawn of day and so peaceful. They only thing I could hear were the birds chirping. My guided prayer for the day prompted me to imagine Jesus sitting next to me and to have a conversation with Him. I expressed my fears and worries and he told me not to worry, that the Lord provides for the birds and of course He will take care of me. Read the parable Matthew 6:25-34 We should not worry about tomorrow! I was so moved and brought to tears by the Holy Spirit. I really did have peace after this moment about going into my surgery and believed the doctors would get all of the cancer and I would be ok. So, here I sit again a year later, and there’s worry about the future. You to see when you have had cancer there’s a chance of reoccurrence, a little bit of fear creeps in, and sometimes you can go down a rabbit hole real quick. So, God is reminding me once again to trust Him. He knows my heart and my fears. He keeps showing up in my devotional and my guided prayer. As for the birds, well they are speaking loud and clear this morning. Reminding me who holds tomorrow and who holds my hand through it all!!
